Musings
‘Breathe’ I tell myself. 'Rest’ as I let my tired bones lay down in bed. 'Let go’ as I close my eyes and let silence pour in generously. Filling in the empty space. 'Wait’ as my heart prays in haste. 'Compose’ every time I want to scream out loud. 'Stay a bit longer’ each time I want to run away. 'Forgive’ each time I punish myself for someone else’s behaviour. 'Confide in yourself’ each time I mistake people for sanctuaries. 'Move on’ every time I see distance in someone’s eyes. 'They aren’t the same’ telling myself repeatedly each time I try to latch on the last thread of familiarity in someone from the past. 'Don’t bother your heart’ every time I surprise myself by pouring out words that chase away hypocrisy. 'They won’t understand’ for every single time only I stood by my side when I faced my demons and yearnings. 'No one is worth it’ for every time I laid down my neck for someone and they walked over it. 'You really can’t find your happiness in someone else’ for all the times I had to create my own sky of auroras wavering through depths of my soul. 'Let your suns rest at the end of a long day’ for every time it gets too dark to think.
- midnight musings.
Because, god, I deserve to be happy, and I will tear that happiness out of life’s snarling jaws if I need to. – Guest Submission
(Please don’t add negative comments to these posts.)
i find it attractive and not at all clingy when someone texts me after hanging out. i guess the gesture means a lot to me because it makes me feel remembered and valued
I roll the dice, you seal the deal.
That don’t matter, ‘cause pain will heal.
I will follow you, into the dark.
when u used to be an overachiever but now ur barely running on enough energy to function and u dont know how to cope
“But the 8-hour workday is too profitable for big business, not because of the amount of work people get done in eight hours (the average office worker gets less than three hours of actual work done in 8 hours) but because it makes for such a purchase-happy public. Keeping free time scarce means people pay a lot more for convenience, gratification, and any other relief they can buy. It keeps them watching television, and its commercials. It keeps them unambitious outside of work. We’ve been led into a culture that has been engineered to leave us tired, hungry for indulgence, willing to pay a lot for convenience and entertainment, and most importantly, vaguely dissatisfied with our lives so that we continue wanting things we don’t have. We buy so much because it always seems like something is still missing.”— Your Lifestyle Has Already Been Designed (via becoming-vverevvolf)
lets play a fun game called ‘is this paranoid thinking or can i actually trust my instincts’
Me: it’s not even that serious.
Inner me: have a breakdown
god I wish I was decomposing in the mountains
me: i’m going to clean my room! i’m going to take a shower! i will wake up early and take care of myself!
brain: u know whats fun? rotting.
oh hey sorry I’ve been distant lately…. I’ve been really busy having a brain that is bad